Blog / 2023 / Proof of Existence
February 6, 2023
I’ve been opening my studio twice a week recently, painting live on Twitch with anyone who wants to come and hang out. It’s been lovely at times and difficult at others—the rolling self-esteem outages I’ve been experiencing since my father died are unpredictable and crushing.
But one part of the experience that’s always wonderful is when old friends show up in the chat: shoutout to Aleesha, Rachael, Hope, and especially Joy Murray!
Joy has been a part of my life since at least 2011 when we first met in person at a reception for a group show featuring art by both of us. We haven’t lived in the same state for years now, but we’ve managed to stay in touch and nurture a friendship with the help of the internet, phone, and good old snail mail.
Years ago, I painted another friend, and he often talks about how that portrait helps him feel more grounded. As he put it, the image acts as a kind of proof of his existence. In some ways, his explanation for what that portrait means to him is also an excellent description of why I painted him—as well as Joy and other loved ones too.
We live in the people who care about us. I mean, we obviously also live in ourselves: we exist in our own bodies, separate from the people in our lives. Still, I think it’s fair to say that the best of our living is done with others.
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